A few of my favourite things

These are a few of my favourite things.........................

meditation, period films, musicals, the SMALL family, those special friends that you may not have contact with for a long time but once you are together it is as if nothing ever changed :), TRAVEL, TRAVEL, TRAVEL, good food, going out for dinner, performing, applause after a performance, dressing up, portraying a different character, acting, sitting on the beach gazing at the ocean, family gatherings, sex, summer, a drink and a cigarette with good friends, sydney, paris, tokyo, london, new york, hamburg, memories, mentors, heros and heroines, cuddling with my lover, fantasy, creativity, DANCING, singing LOUD at home, photography exhibitions, Giant hard cover picture books :), beautiful clothes, balancing, AIRPORTS, people and all our faults too, CHEESE, classical music, pesto, Walking around an unknown city, my grandma barbie, Marie Antoinette (that bitch had a lifestyle), live concerts, playing with my boyfriends cheeks, confident people who know what they want, indescribable moments of bliss. :)  :)  :)     

MONEY MONEY MONEY

Do not give a rats ass about it, it does not bring joy, it does not bring happiness, nor love............ and the list goes on of wonderful things is does not and will never bring. Basically it is just a tool we use to trade for things we want or need. Shall I continue??? .................... it does not inspire nor does it care if you have it or not. The question I ask is; why is it so dam limiting to not have it? The lack of money can bring so much pain, frustration and anger into ones life. Generally in this mad world :) :) :) (which I love) we are not taught how to deal with it, how to save it and very importantly how to make it. I say to myself; I do not give a crap about money and it brings me nothing, at the same time I feel frustrated when I can not afford to go on holiday, buy a nice new jacket or in extreme situations pay the bills, go for a coffee or even do a bloody food shop. I will be the first to raise my hand and say I was not educated in 'how to deal with money'. I am still convinced I will not let it run my life, I will continue with goals, dreaming and living on the hope it will one day be more of a running flowing source straight into my bank account. I once heard someone say, the amount of money you earn is a direct way to measure the amount of service you provide for the world. Hmmm do you agree? .............do I agree? interesting topic, I guess I could blab for pages and pages but I will not do so ..............today. :)

Honouring creativity

I have been thinking about how important it is to honour our creativity. Living a life without creativity........is no life really. It's those moments at 2am when you have an idea, inspiration hits you right in the face. Honour that inspiration by writing your idea down, or sometimes it may call for an all nighter. But when we live from inspiration and creativity we are the most alive we can be. Sometimes I feel very uninspired and not creative at all, but I think it comes from me blocking that creativity with my own personal stresses. I do not believe the creativity is not there. . Maybe it is because I am very busy at work, maybe I am having financial issues..... it could be any number of reasons. Then with time I slowly begin to believe that I am just not a creative being. I feel stuck, I feel like a am in a tiny box and can not get out. YUK, how boring. This is one reason why I decided to leave my old job, because for 2 years the box I was in was getting smaller and smaller, sucking all the creativity I thought I had out of me.

My Birthday SHOOT

The day of this Shoot was my birthday. A Pretty good way to spend your birthday I think. March 31 it is. This time last year I was just recovering from an injury. A broken foot ............. 3 completely ripped ligaments. I was also very unhappy with my job, did not know what dance meant to me anymore and really did not want to go back to work. Well I ended up going back, I recovered from my injury quite well and finished the season. But by july something was different. I new something was going to change. I did not want to experience another miserable year at my work, so what did I do? I made 'THE DECISION'. I would not be going back to my job at the Hamburg Ballet. SCARY. No stable income, no certainty of another job........ only a dream for something different, for something more. The summer of 2010 would bring many many new ideas and dreams to me. So what's going on almost a year later? What have I Achieved, learnt, experienced, cried over, doubted, enjoyed and where am I going now?